Ashu--

2008-03-09T01:33:00.001-08:00

moved. ask me for new link.

2008-02-11T05:33:00.000-08:00

Enjoy!

2008-02-06T22:48:00.000-08:00

Jealous. Someone's a lil sour puss. Yes he is

2008-02-03T02:49:00.000-08:00

who doesn't long for
someone to hold
who knows how to love you
without being told.

I guess its hit me. I am officially lonely with nosoulmate and it totally sucks. like on the train, you see people kissing. You see people signing in with a photo of them and their lover. And when you don't have anyone like that, you just get sad. Depressed. Lonely. Like me. And well. I guess I've told people to love themselves and be HAPPY with themselves, but its hard after 15 years with no one to hold. No one to love. And no one to catch me when I fall.

Soulmate, wherever you are, I'll find you. soon. I promise.

2008-02-02T04:41:00.000-08:00

I think I should b.l.o.g. more. Me and V made up. Isn't that fab news? Now it feels good that at least SOME people care. Sigh. Hint hint? I'm tired. My body aches. All that will disappear tomorrow at the prospect of having ** ***** **** *****! AAAH.

Go me
Go
ME
BABEYE!

2008-01-31T05:18:00.000-08:00

Sigh. You know what sucks? It sucks to be so excited for a day, and end up almost crying during a lesson because of how bad your day has been.

Today was supposed to be a good day, but boy, did it turn out to be just okay. I was so excited when I left the house and was on my way to school. Then during recess V calls me conniving and sneaky. As if I ever bitched about him. He's one of hte few people I never bitch about because I totally respect him. I may have passed a comment or two about him, but have never brought him down. And the person who caused it all is just sucking up to V and acting all nice. I bet he saw it all. I'm such a foool. I have so many things to say about V, but I won't. I just want to blurt out what I really think about him and his attitude, but I won't. He's such a hypocrite! Yesterday, I was talking to Ievan about a math problem and V was like dont tell him anything. Then TK starts talking about another math problem and V listens intently. Shows how self centred and conniving HE is. And he is so self centred and proud. He goes on and on and on about how Amy Chua likes him and blah and I just have to smile politely. And he must be taking some kind of drug cos honestly, he does not seem to be normal. He doesn't do ANYTHING that a normal teenager does and well yeah. Its weird. Oh, did I mention that i'm totally jealous of his extremely strange friendship with TK?

Who could this V person be.

And Joshua can certainly get on my nerves once in a while. The whole day is practically a chance for him to make fun of me. Every period, he says something that hurts me. Sigh.

And it also sucks to have to choose between two friends. Both of them hate each other and I'm caught in the middle. It sucks, cos you'll most likely end up losing a friend, something which I so cannot afford to.

2008-01-26T22:53:00.001-08:00

Just maybe for once, I'd like to be treated nicely. Just maybe, I'd want to be accepted and well-liked and not hated and laughed at. Just maybe, I'd like to be the person's pencil box you don't take, the person who'll always follow you. Just maybe.

Sigh. I wish people would understand what I just said. I guess a lot of people don't exactly care about how I feel and have no clue whatsover about how to read my face. Cos if I'm sad, you should be able to see it.

There's only butterflies. I wish I could go there. Natasha, give me your pocketful of sunshine. I guess I'm what you'd call "emo" whenever I blog cos I never seem to be happy. Well, yes I am pessimistic, and I don't see anything wrong. In real life, I may come off as optimistic, so let me change sides okay?

And problems of others are kinda serious too. I do care about them, but when I'm 98% going ot sleep, it may seem that I put me above them. which of course I do, but I still care. Like maybe when I go to bed, I think about the problem and pray that everything will be fine.

get ready for the comebakc of ...................................something really B
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2008-01-26T03:34:00.000-08:00

just break it off tonight!
project runway starts next month. Whoo for that

2008-01-04T03:28:00.000-08:00

La.

I'm trying to blog more often. Today was better, the best day so far. Maybe its cos of where I sat, nearer to people I'm familiar with. I was able to crack a laugh quite a few times, but as usual some idiots' comments just made my day
go
freaking
BAD.

2008-01-03T05:32:00.000-08:00

Hello. Second day of school was even worse than the first. I didn't have a badhairday, but it was still not normal. I was so sleepy, so I'm gonna sleep real early. And then the lessons were boring, and the day ended at 2:10. So tiring. Gosh. And someone told me that people think I have a crush on ****? I am just flabbergasted. What the hell is wrong with the people of today. Well, maybe they're just jealous of how fabulous I am.

I really live up to my title of Scandalous Ashu.

2008-01-02T03:10:00.000-08:00

Sigh. School wasn't as good as I hoped it was. I woke up at 5:20, and came out of the shower at six. But I took FOREVER to fix my hair. I'd like fix it and then do something else and five minutes later I'd go back to fix it again. So I left the house in a rush at 6:45 with screwed up hair. I go to school, and I'm late. I walk into class, and everybody's looking at me. I told everyone to keep their eyes o me, and they're just doing that. The lessons were boring, I'm not happy with where I'm sitting. Sigh. And someone HAD to comment on my hair and make me fret about it the whole day! So finally I went to get my hair done so it isn't so messy right now. Not too happy, but its okay. So I came home at like 3, and I was watching Lonely Planet: Six Degrees and it was a MUMBAI episode! Whoo Mumbai<3. And there was the hijra section, and it was all weird. haha. But Asha's a real sport. I<3AshaGill. SHE ROCKS. She was in Baghban and all. Sigh. When will my dreams come true. When, God, when?

2007-12-31T06:28:00.000-08:00

Yes, it's the last eight minutes of 2007 guys. Sob Sob. Well, I'm gonna go to the living room, but I'll present you with BITCHES.FM's TOP 40 SONGS OF 2007! This is truly a fab countdown, with Beyonce, Hilary, Rihanna, Amy, Leona, Jordin, Victoria all calling in (Thanks De-Yi!) Whoo. Go De Yi & Me. BUT OF COURSE,
GO
BITCHES.FM
Listen as each celeb bitches about the other. Yep. It's a bitches.fm specialty.
Gosh.
Last
SIX
minutes of 07 ):

I'll miss you so much 2007. You weren't a fab year, but you were a good one. Geez. I' m going to be Sec 4. This is really happening too fast. But at least I know that my friends are there with me. Well, the few friends I have. And like it or not, the people I detest are facing the same problems too. OHMYGOD. It's THE LAST FIVE MINUTES.

-rushes to open iTunes-

I'm going to RANDOMLY play a song. That song is THE final song of 2007, as chosen by iTunes.
-waits for iTunes to open-
-waits-
-waits-
-OPENS-
-Clicks Play-

WHAT COMES UP BUT NOLITA FAIRYTALE. Well guys, iTunes thinks Nolita Fairytale is the song of 2007. I'm shocked. Why couldn't it have been Hilary :p Does this mean its the end? The end of my secondary three life? Does this mean I start life as a sec four, the oldest in the school, the supposedly MATURED one, with no room for errors.

Three final minutes. Which I'm going to treausre. Before I go to the other side of the clock. Once it chimes, it will never be 2007 again. I will have to adjust to writing 2008 in my dates; not 2007 anymore. I can't believe its over guys.
I've survived another year. My grandmother's death, school fights, exams, new class, new teachers, new experiences, new failures. Gosh. 2007, I'll miss you.

Two minutes. Now I think of all the positive things. Dignity. New friends. Sigh. Good Girl Gone Bad. 2007 produced UMBRELLA. Gosh. Gosh. Ella Ella Eh Eh Eh.

One minute. O levels. Ah. And school's gonna start the day after tmrw. ): I don't wanna go to school. Haven't finished my homework.

The song after Nolita Fairytale is my 2008 JAM.

IT IS ---- -Are Re Are Re from Dil To Pagal Hai

GOODBYE2007
HELLO2008.

2007-12-30T18:05:00.000-08:00

If there's a soulmateeeeee for everyone.

Yes! My soulmate obsession has RE-surfaced. Whoo soulmate. WHO DOESN'T LONG FOR SOMEONE TO HOLD, WHO KNOWS HOW TO LOVE YOU WITHOUT EBING TOLD. Oh somebody, PLEASE tell me why I'm on my own. Aah. 2007's coming to an end. This is seriously wicked. The years rae going by too fast.

I have nothing else to say, except HAPPY NEW YEAR! Have a GUHREAT party tonight and don't think about school! GO 2008!

2007-12-28T18:43:00.000-08:00

Oh like FINALLY blogger. Ugh. My com is pissing me off. Whenever I turn on the com, there's this Run DLL thing. Then the interent opens and goes to Saatchi Art Gallery dot com. It's SO annoying. I think I'll reformat my com later, but I think I'll lose everything! How annoying. Sigh. Ahhh. Year's ending TOO fast. Gosh I don't wanna be sec four. The first day of school is going to be like so weird. I have to buy my uniform soon. And I have so many things to do! Geez, the holidays ended too quickly. Now its school again, and then it's O levels, then its a short break and I go on to either JC or Poly. WOW. I hate time when it goes by too fast. BIG TEXT. ZP's post made me laugh out LOUD . haha. FP 1 & FP2

2007-12-22T22:40:00.001-08:00

Blogger really takes forever to load. Hello people. It's been too long. I have visited my blog (of course, it's my home page!), but been lazy to post. I was bored today so I decided to post. I have a NEW SKIN. Credit to me for the fabulous graphics. Will you say okayyy. I totally love that song. I guess my new artist to be obsessed with is Vanessa Hudgens! You go girl!

I have a pocket full of sunshine. Yes I do. My life is horrible now, but strangely, I'm not sad! I've become happy with my life and learnt to embrace my problems. DON'T I ROCK. ALL MY PEOPLE WHO EMBRACE THE PROBLEMS SAY
I
I
I
I
I

I got banned from HilaryFan. haha. Which sucks. So I've moved to Juicy Duff. yes. moved to Juicy Duff D: lol. Angela influenced me to do this D: thing. I think it looks cool. Oh yes, I borrowed NINE NEW NANCY DREW MYSTERIES. Who rocks? I do. IF I DO SAY YEA. Take me away, a secret place, a sweet escape TAKE ME AWAY BABY.

Yes. Take me away, far away from where I am. Set my heart ablaze baby. (: I just lol-ed at someone's blog and their profile. Seriously. haha. It was SO funny. It was just one word and I laughed. xD

TAKE ME AWAY! B Y E!

2007-12-13T02:16:00.000-08:00


No.	Song	Artist	Plays	M-PNC	TOTAL
1	With Love	Hilary Duff	88	76	164
2	Umbrella	Rihanna	52	100	152
3	Bubbly	Colbie Caillat	42	95	137
4	Big Girls Don't Cry	Fergie	37	99	136
5	Girlfriend	Avril Lavigne	33	99	132
6	No One	Alicia Keys	31	99	130
7	Say It Right	Nelly Furtado	24	99	123
8	Never Again	Kelly Clarkson	28	94	122
9	Real Girl	Muty Buena	24	98	122
10	Gimme More	Britney Spears	24	97	121
11	Before He Cheats	Carrie Underwood	27	92	119
12	Glamorous	Fergie	20	99	119
13	Because of You	Ne-Yo	18	98	116
14	Hey There Delilah	Plain White T's	16	99	115
15	Potential Breakup S.	Aly & AJ	32	83	115
16	Hate That I Love You	Rihanna ft. Ne-Yo	23	91	114
17	Soulmate	Natasha Bedingfield	21	93	114
18	Love Like This	Natasha Bedingfield	33	80	113
19	Beautiful Liar	Beyonce, Shakira	15	97	112


20	Shut Up & Drive	Rihanna	26	86	112
21	About You Now	Sugababes	12	100	112
22	The Way I Are	Timbaland, Keri Hilson	15	97	112
23	What Time Is It	High School Musical 2	16	94	110
24	Wait For You	Elliot Yamin	16	94	110
25	In This Life	Delta Goodrem	11	99	110
26	Makes Me Wonder	Maroon 5	9	100	109
27	Last Night	Diddy, Keyshia Cole	18	90	108
28	Over It	Katharine McPhee	37	71	108
29	Bleeding Love	Leona Lewis	7	100	107
30	I Wanna Have Your..	Natasha Bedingfield	14	93	107
31	Like A Boy	Ciara,	26	81	107
32	Tattoo	Jordin Sparks	17	89	106
33	Can't Touch It	Ricki-Lee	7	98	105
34	Oh My God	Lily Allen	12	92	104
35	Ayo Technology	50 Cent,JT, Timba	9	95	104
36	Rehab	Amy Winehouse	11	93	104
37	Like This	Kelly Rowland,Eve	33	70	103
38	Let It Go	Keyshia Cole	9	93	102
39	Headlines	Spice Girls	13	89	102


40	Thnks Fr Th Mmrs	Fall Out Boy	12	89	101
41	When You're Gone	Avril Lavigne	25	76	101
42	Candyman	Christina Aguilera	25	75	100
43	Clumsy	Fergie	5	94	99
44	Hold On	KT Tunstall	20	79	99
45	Song 4 Mutya	Mutya Buena	6	92	98
46	Do It Well	Jennifer Lopez	29	69	98
47	Nobody's Perfect	Miley Cyrus	26	72	98
48	You Know I'm No Go	Amy Winehouse	25	72	97
49	Wake Up Call	Maroon 5	15	81	96
50	When I See You	Fantasia	28	68	96
51	This is My Now	Jordin Sparks	10	85	95
52	Lip Gloss	Lil Mama	6	87	93
53	LoveStoned	Justin Timberlake	9	83	92
54	So Small	Carrie Underwood	6	83	89
55	Whine Up	Kat Deluna	17	71	88
56	Tell Me Bout It	Joss Stone	11	72	83
57	Just Fine	Mary J. Blige	8	74	82
58	Misery Business	Paramore	11	70	81
59	Can't Leave Em Alone	Ciara, 50 Cent	19	60	79


60	Tambourine	Eve	8	70	78
61	Glorious	Natalie Imbruglia	8	62	70
62	Say OK	Vanessa Hudgens	29	39	68
63	Don't Forget To Rem..	Carrie Underwood	14	51	65
64	4 In The Morning	Gwen Stefani	19	42	61
65	Stranger	Hilary Duff	58	3	61
66	Upgrade U	Beyonce	19	41	60
67	Easy	Paula DeAnda	24	36	60
68	Saving My Face	KT Tunstall	6	50	56
69	Listen	Beyonce	18	37	55
70	Piece of Me	Briteny Spears	8	37	45
71	Thinking About You	Norah Jones	20	18	38
72	He Said, She Said	Ashley Tisdale	14	23	37
73	Love Story	Katharine McPhee	30	0	30
74	Turn Around	Samantha Jade	12	17	29
75	Wall To Wall	Chris Brown	6	22	28
76	Tell Me What We're..	Joss Stone, Common	10	16	26
77	Don't Stop The Music	Rihanna	12	12	24
78	Do It	Nelly Furtado	12	12	24
79	Be Good To Me	Ashley Tisdale	6	17	23


80	Change	Kimberly Locke	21	0	21
81	One Night Only	Dreamgirls	20	0	20
82	Hot	Avril Lavigne	15	5	20
83	Gotta Work	Amerie	18	0	18
84	Anything	Jojo	15	0	15
85	Take Control	Amerie	14	0	14
86	Ordinary Love	Paris Bennett	13	0	13
87	Slow Down Baby	Christina Aguilera	12	0	12
88	Nolita Fairytale	Vanessa Carlton	11	0	11
89	Orange County	Stefy Rae	11	0	11
90	I Fell In Love With Th	Che'Nelle, Cham	11	0	11
91	Promise Ring	Tiffany Evans ft. Ciara	10	0	10
92	You Can't Stop The Beat	Hairspray Cast	10	0	10
93	Realize	Colbie Caillat	7	0	7
94	Jenny	The Click Five	6	0	6
95	Give It To You	Eve	6	0	6
96	I Know Where I've Be	Hairspray Cast	6	0	6
97	Welcome to The 60s	Hairspray Cast	6	0	6
98	Only One U	Fantasia	6	0	6
99	Baby Love	Nicole Scherzinger	5	0	5


	100	My Bra	Mya		5		0	5

2007-12-09T02:26:00.000-08:00

Yes, the year is coming to an end. I'll be doing my year-end reflection soon. And well instead of an awards show, there's going to be year-end charts.
The charts are:

(1) Top 100 songs of 2007
(2) Top 20 albums of 2007
(3) Top 50 artists of 2007
(4) Top 10 movies of 2007
(5) Top 20 celebs of 2007
(6) Top 10 incidents of 2007
(7) Top 10 TV episodes of 2007
(8) Top 10 TV Shows of 2007
(9) Top 10 TV moments of 2007
(10) Top 100 moments of 2007.

2007-11-24T23:18:00.001-08:00

My moon my moon. Yes, KT showed me the moon wondefully. It was realll bright and bookish but when I took a photo, some of the splendour was lost.

2007-11-23T23:28:00.000-08:00

-----ASHU----says---HI

I'm here to blog again. Someone keeps making me feel as if my blog is the worst ever blog. Not a good feeling; trust me. I have nothing more to say.

2007-11-23T23:21:00.000-08:00

After some evil person commented that my blog was kinda not interesting, I've decided that I will make it uber interesting. (:

I woke up at 10.20 this morning. Kinda late, but I slept at 2.30. I was watching Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna from 12 (After Survivor), so it's kinda logical that I wake up late. Ashu needs his sleep doesn't he?
My dad was kind of ill, so he was grumpy and started to complain about me and my bollywood obsession cos I put the volume real high (Hey! I like my bollywood songs) and he couldn't sleep. He's much better now, and Auntie Vic and Uncle Joel and Great Aunt Boonga are outside in the hall talking to him and my grandmother. I kinda feel left out, and so here I am.
Veronica is at cat. class, if not she would have come too. ): It's been so long since I've talked to her. I dont' really feel comfortable calling Aunty Rama "Rama Aunty" at home, cos I feel all hosty.
I've realised how many words have been underlined in red so far, and it's kinda freaking me out. Is my English seriously that bad? Tonight, is the night of the

FULL MOON. MOOOOOOOOOOOOON
yes people. The moons' out at 6.35 till 6.05 tomorrow. (: can't wait. there are only 25 people online, and some of them aren't very close to me so I don't really wanna talk to them. Only talking to two people; Gwenn&ZP. Sigh.

I hope this has been interesting. I can make it more interesting by including this: I am pissed with a certain person, because that person is a horny, bastard.

yes
I am done
I cannot go back to straight text. It's still italicised. bleah
Bye

omg. ITS BACK! bye

2007-11-20T04:49:00.000-08:00

Well. My social life has certainly improved. I mean, with the holidays and peer2peer interaction GREATLY reduced, the name-calling has been almost close to zilch. But I'm still not very happy. Somehow, I miss being in all that limelight. The limelight where Ashu was A STAR. Now I'm nothing more than an interplanetary medium.

2007-11-16T02:56:00.000-08:00

I am officially officially pissed. And when Ashu is officially officially pissed, it's not good. Because Ashu is never pissed. And do you know what made him pissed?

Two people
calling
him
SELF OBSESSED.

That is the meanest thing ever. I mean, I care SO much about other people. I put others before me and those 2 b&&&&&& called me SELF OBSESSED? I want to be a humanitarian, and I think I'm quite a good one already, and people call me this! I donate to charity! I care about Africans. How dare they
HOW DARE THEY

etl;dgldsg

2007-11-15T18:50:00.000-08:00

We go back so far
Swinging in your backyard

I love that song. Natasha Bedingfield is just pure love.
Sigh.
It's the first week of the holidays
and ITS ENDING.
The holidays are not supposed to end so fast!

2007-11-15T03:34:00.001-08:00

This joint here
It makes me wanna

AAHHH.

Hey people. (:
I went to the library today and I borrowed two totally hot books. Scanned their covers to spice up my blog xD Whee. I just screwed up the formatting didn't I?
haha. I kinda like it. MY BLOG POST IS SANDWICHED BETWEEN AMERICA'S SWEETHEART AND AMERICA'S FAVE TV SHOW.

BYE

2007-11-12T06:46:00.000-08:00

Whee. Went to watch Om Shanti Om and Sawaariya. yesterday. OSO slides in at #2 on list of fave movies EVER. I mean, it beat Kal Ho Naa Ho. Sawaariya was at #19. Sorry! But it can't beat Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna can it.

Some trivia about OSO!

It got 1.5 million on its opening day in the US! I hope it beats KANK. Farah deserves it.

2007-11-10T20:16:00.000-08:00

ohmygod. I HAD A TERRIBLE DREAM.

Okay, it started off with the Dignity Tour Singapore! on 18.1.08. It was at Expo Hall 5 and I went there ALONE to watch the concert. Strangely, I was late and the opening act was Fergie. She was singing when I walked in, and the concert venue looked like a cinema. I mouth the words to Big Girls Don't Cry and I turn to my right and I see someone I hate! doing the same. And I'm like all ohmygod. And that person smiles at me and then I don't know why, I suddenly leave the arena. I leave the arena and I take a cab ride to Bishan, and then I take another cab back to the Expo. At around Shunfu, the cab driver deserts me and I have to take another cab. On the radio, I suddenly hear With Love being played and I go all crazy. Bythetime I reach the Expo, the concert is over. I then go to the hall (which looks like the SJI canteen!) and I see Hilary! I go up to her and tell her I'm her biggest fan and she runs away from me! She comes back and autographs my hand. After doing this, she kisses me and I realised I haven't bought any merchandise. I go back to the merchandise store and see the person I hate buying everything and thus leaving nothing for me.

Then I woke up.

sigh.

2007-11-09T05:39:00.000-08:00

Yo KEYSHIA. :D

Anyway, I've decided to vent on this blog. I've never really done this, so bear with me. I really don't know what to do. Do you know that there is a possibility of me being something that I never htought I'd be. I mean seriously. I'm really scared.
Whenever people start calling me a fag, I usually ignore it. But earlier this year, I thought about what they called me and I considered being gay. And thats when all the incidents occured. And then now there are all these rumours again, and these rumours make me wanna do what the rumours state. I mean its so hard to understand

I hate my life but I love me.

2007-10-31T05:35:00.000-07:00

Wheee. What's up people? It's HALLOWEEEN. Yes. Spooky. Whooooo. Ghost ghost ghost. Ghooost.

So anyway, like I was saying, it's a spooky night. Full moon. Werewolf. :D. Like the Goosebumps book - Werewolf Skin. Oh that was one of my faves.

Trying to bake a cake for Veron, WHOSE BIRTHDAY IS TOMORROW WHEE. But her house got no oven. So I'm trying to find a cake that can be baked with freezer

2007-10-30T05:14:00.000-07:00

It was so easy that night.
Should have controlled yet I lied.
Nobody gets me like yoouuuu.

I really love that song. I really miss her and it sucks that she's gone. ): Its too late to say that I know how I feel about her now. Anyway, these past few days, weeks or whatever that I haven't been blogging have been very busy. I haven't got a good night's rest yet! And I'm getting pissed. Honestly, I think my BP has risen by like egomdg,.gdm. Today was so tensed because that idiotic S (pronounce ass/senthil) told an untrue secret to the other idiot N (pronounce another ass/nicholas) and N told his idiotic G (read gang/gsaf;dsg;'ds) and now the idiotic G are laughing about it.

Thanks a lot S.

2007-10-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

Aaah. I'm blogging more frequently now. I realised that you're not able to see my title!

GUILT

Guilt is a funny thing. You'll never feel it, till someone knocks you on the head. Sigh. Something horrible and disgusting happened. I was possessed by the devil. It made me do something to someone, and wow, I did not even care that I was making that person uncomfortable. How evil am I?

Sigh. I hate it when you do something and then you regret it forever. I still go by what I said at the place.

Nightpost'

2007-10-18T07:12:00.000-07:00

I gave my post a title! Today it shall be called Nightpost'. Can you see the '. I have no idea why the ' is there, but I think it gives my title more flair.

Anyway, my dad is sleeping right now and he annoyingly turned off the hall lights and was like "Go sleep. You have school" and his door's open so I can't watch ANTM. Oh well.

This past week has like always been an emotional roller coaster ride. I was so excited about the P-S and then something happened and I had to cancel it. Some of you may know, but I don't wish to mention it here.

I did not go to school today. I'm physically and emotionally drained and I seriously needed a break. You should see my eyebags. I actually spelt them as ibags. I could sell 'em. :D. Anyway, they're HUGE. And my dark circles. How freaky. And my soul is sooooo crumpled right now, and I need to iron it all out. And I need a days' rest to do that.
Sheesh

2007-10-12T06:00:00.000-07:00

28th post. Which is really nothing compared to the 151 I had over at Cloudy Tales. It's the end of the week, FRIDAY. But it doesn't exactly feel like a friday; maybe its because the whole mood of the level is so relaxed. And I don't know how I'm going to get through the annoying extra lessons at the end of the year. My brain is already dead.

Today and yesterday were results days. I didn't do tooo well, but I'm still happy. I guess I got what I got and I can't change that. Went to Plaza Sing today for no apparent reason. Joshua wanted to go for lunch so me and ZP went. It was fun but tiring! Sigh. And then I realised how untalented I was born. Both of them are so wonderfully musically inclined. Me? Well I can't read notes, can't sing, can't play any instrument (I even screwed up the recorder) and YETTT I have dreams about being a SINGER.

That is so cool ain't it? Someone who can't sing but has big dreams. Anyway, I was reading RAIN (The 1970s book; not the Korean guy) and I realised how much I want to live in a place like Samoa, where there are white churches "dotted around the island". Won't it be cool to drive in a jeep along a rugged track and say hi to the villagers and then see a church. Now you may be thinking that I'm a very city person. You're wrong people.

I love nature. I'm very pro-nature. I don't like idiots who don't turn lights off; and I hate those who don't recycle. In fact, I have to give one of the teachers MY idea on how SJI can be more pro-environment. Anyway, OBS was obviously something like Samoa minus the beauty. There were corrugated shelters; but all the same, it sucked. So how am I going to survive on Samoa? I have no idea. Ask GOD. He gives me the ideas with no possible solution.

Sigh. I hope this has been long enough. If it isn't, tell me lol.

2007-10-10T03:26:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated for a long time. New layout coming soon; I promise! I'm working on a lot of mini projects (which I won't name here due to unknown readers). And well I've been quite busy with other stuff as well.

-thats all I have to say.

2007-09-08T00:18:00.000-07:00

Hey people I opened this but then I decided not to blog now. Tura.

2007-09-04T02:10:00.000-07:00

WHATSUP

2007-09-02T23:47:00.000-07:00

People, people, people. To everyone who has called me a faggot (99% of people I know), Can't you see that I'm NOT AFFECTED BY IT. I'm ASHU. Ashu isn't affected by such trivial matters. I mean, if you want to be so childish&babyish as to call me names, what can I do? I mean, if you think that by saying that, you're going to hurt me. Well you were right for a small period of time. Yes I was hurt, and yes I was affected GREATLY. But now, I've realised that I am who I am and I don't need you to like it.

Obviously, certain things which happened at OBS affected me. But I've done all that I can. I've talked to the people, tried to do some MAJOR damage control, and if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out. There's nothing more I can do.

I do admit that what I did was wrong and all that. Ugh. I feel like Audrina. Wait not Audrina. Who's the girl who fought with Lauren? On the Hills. You're the Lauren. Maybe we're going to make up. Maybe we won't.

Bye. Too depressed to talk about O-B-S aka REHAB.

2007-08-26T05:12:00.000-07:00

Don't try to make me go to Rehab I won't GO GO GO GO. Rehab = OBS. Yes people. The time has come. It's tomorrow. I'm not exactly looking forward to it, neither am I dreading it. I've grown out of trying to skip it and I just want to come back a better person. I've packed my bag. Bag. Bag bag. Do it won't you do it to me.

2007-08-23T06:32:00.000-07:00

Love Love Love (story) Love love love (Story).

hey ya'll. (: .I'm trying to blog more often. If you haven't noticed. I think you may know why. My blog readership has been overtaken by someone so unexpected. And now I have to keep you interested with more personal posts about myself, my life and of course ME! I love me. Anyway, today is Thursday. This means that its coming closer to the weekend. And OBS. I'm really scared now. I'm freaking out over the bag problem. Tote bag? I want to bring a tote bag cos I don't have a camping bag and I don't want to buy one.

You can buy all the make up that man can make. But if you can look inside you and find out who are you to make me feel so WEIRD. =D. I love that song. Well minus the weird, replace with unpretty. I miss you TLC. I hated today. It was a horrible day. Okay listen. We had this stupid A Math project in like week 1 right? And I kinda like deleted it and then Jia Sheng& Marcus start blaming me. They didn't do anything at all. I felt like throwing my calculator or something at Marcus again but I didn't want to seem like some psychopath. And after that was BIO SPA. I screwed it up. I saw Mrs Lim give everyone a tick instead of me. I FORGOT TO FOLLOW INSTRUCTION7 (Rinse the syringe with the next glucose solution). And I kept doing it to get her attention and give me the tick, but she had put her clipboard in her ugly bag. Probably to hide the fake Gucci design.

And I had MT Oral which went well. I talked about Opening a hospital for AIDS patients. I wish I could do that! (: And then after that went out for lunch and then I saw an ultra hot scarf at Junction 8 (Seiyu) but it was $29. :O. A scarf. I want. I'm gonna get it. HAIRSPRAY TOMORROW!

And ohmygod. Dignity 07-08. This is really the hottest tour of the year.

2007-08-22T03:08:00.000-07:00

I just can't leave em alone. I love that song. Anyway, I didn't go to school yesterday. I was too pissed to mention it in yesterday's post. Today was a good day, well not really. I had to witness something I'd rather not ever witness.

And can you believe it. Look at the photo and you'll be shocked.

THAT IS HILARY BEFORE PLAY WITH FIRE! (The opening scene). God Dignity 07-08 looks so damn good. I'm really PRAYING that she comes to Singapore. I really hope she comes! Come on Hilary. I'm here!!!

Hil D.

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Take a look at the soundcheck for Never Stop @ Las Vegas, Nevada.

haha. Back to MY life. Things have been going a bit hectic. I've been extremely busy, what with school work and my personal life (yes people, I do have one =D). I'm basically denying rumours, answering questions, and on top of all that, I have to do my homework, pay attention and copy corrections. I mean, how stressful can SCHOOL get. So much for simple learning. Like today, I was trying to listen to Mrs Lim's corrections when suddenly Lee Chuan is like "What happened? They extorted from you". And I'm trying to get him to shut up, but he doesn't want to. I'm like HELLO MRS LIM! I want to complain. And Daryl & Jin are making me like so pissed. I'm like hello. Stop it. Ha ha ha. Daryl, you're an idiot. Just watch out cos Ashu has his eyes on you! Oh yeah. I got my eyes on you. For everything you ever said about me and S and Arjuna. HOW MANY WAYS DO I HAVE TO SAY, SHUT UP DARYL, DON'T ACT CRAZY!

2007-08-20T23:04:00.000-07:00

How can people be so mean? To talk about me behind their backs and tell me something else to my face. I mean, GROW UP people. If you have something to say to me, just say it. There's no need to have thoughts about me in your head and then be all like "Yeah I believe you" when you actually don't. What am I gonna do? Eat you. I mean, I'll try to convince you yeah. But if you tell me you that you believe me but you actually don't, its much worse cos I won't try to convince you and you'll just be accepting the damn lie. If you think I'm gay, have the guts to say it to my face. "Ashu I think you're gay with blah". Blah can be anyone right? Yeah. So if you say that, I'll start to tell you why I'm not and all that and hopefully I'll change your mind for you. I mean, yes I'll get a bit hurt, but I'll get MORE hurt if you say stuff behind my back.

2007-08-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

You're so good to meee. I can't get that out of my head. Get it? Out of my head? lol. okay. I'm weird. Anyway, today was Monday! Monday signals the start of another dull, slow week ahead. I got back my A-Math results and I don't wanna boast or anything so I'm not gonna post my results here cos I'm gonna flunk final year anyway. Wow that was a long sentence.

This is week nine of the term. OBS is next week and I'm totally scared for it. What will I do? I hope there are no mountains there. If there are/is I'm dead. I can't climb any mountain people!

Oh someone asked me to post about what I got in my 91.3 goodie bag. There were 2-3 postcards a woman's magazine (Shape which came with a free skipping rope with an inbuilt counter), some home decor magazine and my CD and some pencils and stuff. How cheap. They gave it to me in an envelope.

I am so loving Ms Leow now. She picked out Joshua and my script and marked them first and smsed us our results. She's so sweet! <3 style="font-weight: bold;">Lies LIES LIES!

Purple scarves. Mmm. Scarf. That sounds like someone from Hey Arnold doesn't it? Pointless stuff aside, I have something to vent about. Okay lets just say that you have a best friend. And this best friend and you have some kind of relationship problems. This best friend has also told his mum about you, telling her about the way you act&all. Now this best friend's mother (whom in my opinion is a total bitch) tells her son to stay away from you WHEN HER SON HIMSELF ACTS LIKE THAT. I'm like HELLO. Hypocrite alert. ee-awww-eee-awww.

HYPOCRITES ARE LURKING THIS WORLD PEOPLE. I just hope this mum looks at her own son before coming to any conclusion about me Mrs Old&Haggy Honey.

BYE<3ASHU!

&ashu

2007-08-19T07:07:00.000-07:00

Hey ya'll. I feel like a gypsy blogger! Some of you may know where that came from. Hmm. Let me give you the acronym. TPM. What could that be? I so don't know!

Today and yesterday were fine. Both days were extremely..slack. Well as expected. What can one do after the common tests. I have not unpacked my school bag. No idea when I'll pack it. Yesterday was quite fun. Well the later part of the day anyway. After the usual Saturday night drama, we went to watch Rush Hour 3. I found it stupid. Chris Tucker has an annoying voice. Is his name Chris Tucker? I kinda forget stuff like that who have no importance to the world whatsoever.

My mum is so weird. She smses like Ms Leow. All Ah Lianish. Like "wad 2 do...bz". I'm so freaked out by it. haha. For those observant ones who MAY have noticed my new Singles Chart page which is inspired by Billboard's Singles Charts and ZP's Recurrent 20. The Pop 5 is just the Hot 20 minus all the R&B and The R & B 5 is mainly the Hot 20 minus all the Pop sutff which doesn't exactly leave a lot to chart does it? And the recurrent chart will have extremely dramatic changes. For those of you who dislike dramatic changes (nudge nudge to a certain 2letter character), you may wish NOT to look at the Recurrent 20!.

Unbolded. Yeah. Bolded. Unbolded! Itacilised AND BOLDED. Unitacilised and unbolded. Whoaaa. I'm goood aren't I.

Anyway, something freaky happened today. I went to get some of my OBS stuff. Like uhm SANDALS. My old ones are torn. And when I was trying on Sandals, I realised how massive my feet are. I'm like bigfoot. Why do I have such disgustingly big feet. Its like Buttress roots. Sigh. I am too tall. I hate being like a frikking stick. ITS SO DISGUSTING LA. I wish I could grow short.
Baby if you strip?
That's such a provocative display name. And wow this is an extremely long blog post. I'm gonna keep blogging don't worry. At night, I was on MSN creating my component charts. And then I called up some people regarding my final year study plan. I plan to start next week which is OBS so I don't know what I'm going to do. Should I bring notes to OBS? I was just J-O-K-I-N-G.

People try to make me feel guilty for stuff they brought upon themselves. I'm not mentioning any names, but honestly people. GROW UP. I do regret some things I have done. But of course, I have no regrets right now cause I am loving my life. Love love love me. Dum Da Dee Da Dee Da. I'm doing that from memory from the Star World ads!

And UGLY BETTY IS COMING TO STAR WORLD. I missed out like 5 episodes because of television clashes on Channel 5 so now I can watch EVERYSINGLEEPISODE. Can't wait for that!!!

Things in school have been going okay now. of course other than the regular controversies and things which irritate me. Like how people have still not stopped calling me names even though I EXPLICITLY STATED ON THIS SPACE THAT PEOPLE SHOULD STOP IT. I'm obviously not threatening or people don't understand I'm serious. Well people, I am serious. I know where to take this to if it doesnt' stop. Don't worry my little US-weeklies and People magazines and all the other celebrity gossip magazines (in touch weekly, Hello, OK! and Stardust). Stardust cos I do cater to the Bollywood sector. (:

This is really long. BYE<3ASHU!

2007-08-16T03:11:00.000-07:00

Hoot Hoot Hoot Hoot. I'm an owl.

Common tests are over! Finally. I feel all better. But so tired. I haven't had enough sleep. Was supposed to sleep today but Arjuna wanted to go to Junction8. So we did. Tomorrow's my RINGFEST! ZP really got me addicted to The Ring. I mean I watched it in 2004 or something and I was like okayy. Then I watched it on Saturday and was freaked out and ZP kept talking about Samara. haha.

I think I'm part of a typical love story. Started out as friends. And now it all ends.

I'm happy with my Chemistry but LIKE OHMYGOD PHYSICS. SIMON HO GOT MY HOPES UP. "It's easier than term 2". I feel like scratching him. lol. This is how it ends. Sorry. I am so loving Love Story.

Here's something people SHOULD know about me. People think that I don't care about what people call me. Well. Those peopl are wrong. Way freaking wrong. Do you know how it feels to have eyes on you all the time. People always have this misconception that I'm just this girly guy who'll take whatever shit you give him. Well I'm not. This is my time, and I have something to say.

-Watch this space for more!

2007-08-13T03:39:00.000-07:00

Ehmagod! It's a MONDAY. And its COMMONTESTS! Wooo. Okay. So I started the SS paper and I was like. OMG. What do I write for the stupid picture? In the end, I think I screwed it up. haha. E-Math was easy&fun cos Mrs Lim was invigilating. She just sits on the table. haha.

Then during PSE, Mr Teo calls me to go to the staff room and then Mr Liew and him all start to interrogate me. So scary. Then as I was leaving, I heard them say "Quite silly". haha. Am I silly people? HAIRSPRAY!

I feel really bad. ZP no matter how much you tell me not to, I may have just ruined peoples' lives. I hope that nothing bad happens to these people.

As to the comment of Arjuna's about the Mr Liew thingy. Well Arjuna, I'll call you out and tell you. haha. Ice. ICE ICE BABY.
WhirlpoolWhirlpool.

After school, ZP Joshua and me went to see Ms Tan! regarding Chemistry. She's so..adorable. I mean, funny. The way she laughs and laughs. She's uber friendly. I hope I do.

BUBBLY.

I just hope nothing bad happens. Oh Gosh. I may have ruined LIVES AND ASHUTOSH DOES NOT DO THAT. I'm a nice person. I WANT TO APOLOGISE TO EVERY SINGLE PERSON. I DID NOT MEAN FOR THIS TO HAPPEN.

2007-08-12T02:32:00.000-07:00

MM M MM M M MM

2007-08-11T05:04:00.000-07:00

Some people are addicted to blogging. And their blogs then become so much hotter than mine. I am not going to let that happen. My blog has to be the premier, hot blog.

(:

Today. Let's see. Saturday! A few more days/hours to common tests. Yay. I can't wait for it to all be over. The Thursday it ends, I'm watching HAIRSPRAY (does it come out). I love Hairspray. Or at least I will. And on Friday I'll be sleeping. Because I have been sleeping really late nowadays. haha.
OOH. Phone's ringing. Hopefully for me. Byee

2007-08-10T05:59:00.001-07:00

ohmygod. When I read other people's blogs, I realise how open they are. I think I should start doing that from now.

Okay today I went to school to study. With a few others. And then I went to the annex and the aircon was off! inconspicocouinconspicocousinconspicocousinconspicocousinconspicocous. Sorry. So how can WE STUDY IN A STUFFY ATMOSPHERE. We decide to go to Bishan Library. And then on the way down we see Ms Wong, who's like"Why are ya'll in school" and we're like "Here to study" then she's like "Okay good luck!". So nice.

So then we went to Bishan and we were hunting for seats when I saw Ievan!!! So I joined him and 3 others from his class. I guess it was productive. I saw this amazing book on Airline Fashion and it inspired me. I wanna be a fashion show coordinator. I choose whats in the show, design the set, choose the models EVERYTHING except design.

haha. ASHU ASHU I'M ASHU!

2007-08-10T05:41:00.000-07:00

It just takes one call. I'll come running.

Its been National Day. It doesn't feel like National Day. Well 2 days past. Haha. What have I been doing? Like everyone else. MUGGING! haha. Ms Yam is so nice. She gave Ievan the chic-est sexiest pink scarf. AND ITS BRANDED! (NIKE!!!) FOR FREE. I WANT A CHIC PINK SCARF FOR MY BIRTHDAY. SOMEONE BETTER BUY ME THE SCARF FOR MY BIRTHDAY. hint. hint.

haha. 2 more days to common test. Remember I won Good Girl Gone Bad? IT CAME WITH A SKIPPING ROPE! 'I'm trying to skip. ooh yeah. SKIP SKIP SKIP. 15 minutes of it and you'll lose weight. I'm BREAKING DISHES.

Sorry but all the stress is escaping. I likeee Beautiful Day. =D. Anyway, what are all of you DOING! UPDATE MEEEEE!!! I'm wondering. Go ot the library to study? or stay at home? No idea. I think I'll go ot the library.

BYEPEEPS.

2007-07-27T05:48:00.000-07:00

You you you. Hmm. Let's see. Today's FRIDAY! Spider-pig Spiderpig! So cute right. They think of everything. Friday. The end of another long week. A lot of stuff happened. I honestly think I'm going crazy. Marcus kept annoying me and I threw my pencil box at him. Why? I don't know. And everyone thought I was mad. Because it just hit his neck. I don't know. I just get these sudden outbursts.

I mean, I'm fine with everything. Then suddenly, someone hits my boiling point and I get all crazy. Like in Sec 1 I threw Zi Peng's glasses of his face(SORRY!). Then last year, I just kicked Senthil like crazy. And this year, I just started to claw at Arjuna's face. Sigh.

I need something. Someone. Who can honestly pull me back. I feel like I'm going further and further away from people&the things I love.

I'm 110 pounds. SO WHAT?

2007-07-25T04:52:00.000-07:00

Please don't stop the music. I share the exact same feelings as Rihanna. I mean, WHY STOP THE MUSIC! I wish music revolved around my life 24/5. Not 24/7. Weekends are reserved for other stuff =D

How's school? Mamamsemamamamamicrosoft! Sorry. =D. Okay school's pretty much fine. I screwed up the A Math test today. Cyndia Leow's leaving. She told us. OMG LIKE SO SAD LA. She was one of the nicest teachers. And yes, I did get some bad news. ): I heard that people are saying stuff bout me again. So tell me what we're gonna do now?

SIMPSONS! AHHH. Screaming! Harry Potter was good. Did I post about that? oops. Anyway, Senthil doesn't know what SImpsons is. haha. And, I'm really feeling certain strong emotions again. Not for someone but for something totally else. A few of ya'll may know more.

HAHA.

2007-07-21T04:52:00.001-07:00

What is UP PEOPLE.

I'm at page 130+ of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Its a REALLY good book with a good plot but I mean, I AM SO EXCITED. Who will die?!?!? If I find out before I read it myself, I swear that I will screw whoever told me.

Okay? Haha. I had flag day. Updated the other place as well.

-Taken off.

2007-07-15T05:19:00.000-07:00

Okay. Made the switch to Xanga. That'll be my private blog
where every dark deep secret of mine is revealed. And no,
I'm not going to release it. (:

This weekend was gooood. Really gooood. Though
there were some bad things (dang) but other than
that it was good.

I'm centralizing everything. A new layout I'm
trying. I think I should change my skin.
Should I?

Uh. What did I want to say?
OH YES. 6 more days to HARRYPOTTER#7!

2007-07-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

Trying out Live Journal. MAY make the switch.

2007-07-14T04:10:00.000-07:00

How is everyone doing on a cool Saturday evening. I'm doing fine! Just been really STRESSED. But strangely, there's an air of lightness around me today. Was it Harry Potter? I don't know. All I know is that the movie was the best I have EVER seen. It's sooo good. I'll have to watch it this week again.

I think this air of lightness came about after I opened myself up to a few people. I guess the blog was one of them. Because last week, my schoollife was good. Nothing happened to me (Except for a few minor stuff) and I thoroughly enjoyed it. There were days when I felt down but these days always had good things in the middle of it. (:

It's been two weeks from Christina. I MISS YOU. Ain't No Other Christina!!! It may seem weird but I love Timbaland's "The Way I Are". I like you just the way you are.

Hmm. My Top-Ten will have some new changes to it, the most significant being the Certifications (Thanks ZP for the idea).

All singles which debuted 2-3 weeks ago can be certified. Previous singles will be certified at the end of the year.

Certification System:

1 spin = 2 point
1 vote = .5 point
1 week on chart = 2.5 points
#1 = 10 points
#2 = 9.5 points
#3 = 9.0 points
#4 = 8.8 points
#5 = 8.0 points
#6 = 7.0 points
#7 = 6.8 points
#8 = 6.0 points
#9 = 5.8 points
#10 = 5. points

Retire = 5 points (Increased to 15 weeks for songs that debut from NEXT week (16/7/07))

Greatest Airplay Gainer = 2.5pts/week

GOLD SINGLES = 75 points
PLATINUM SINGLES = 150 points
DIAMOND SINGLES = 300 points

Thanks Zi Peng for helping and giving ideas!

2007-07-07T07:53:00.000-07:00

This is to everyone who's EVER called me gay:

you think it doesnt affect me. I HAD TO ACTUALLY CONSIDER BEING GAY AND I TALKED TO A TEACHER AND SHE HELPED ME. AND I WAS OKAY FOR A WHILE UNTIL EVERYONE IN SCHOOL STARTED CALLING ME GAY AGAIN. WHEN THAT HAPPENED I THOUGHT ABOUT BEING GAY AND I THOUGHT I HAD FEELINGS FOR ANOTHER GUY AND I KEPT THINKING THAT TILL I TALKED TO A TEACHER REGARDING THIS. AND THEN YESTERDAY DURING THAT STUPID HOMOSEXUALITY TALK, EVERYTHING GOT WORSE SOMEONE CALLED MY NAME. SOMEONE WHO DESERVES TO DIE. JUST ROT IN HELL. I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THAN ANY OF YOU. WHY THE HELL SHOULD YOU CALL ME GAY. HUH. YOU THINK IT DOESN'T HURT? JUST BECAUSE I DON'T SAY ANYTHING.RIGHT. YOU WANT ME TO RETALIATE? WELL I WON'T COS I'M NOT LIKE THAT. BUT JUST STAY OUT OF MY LIFE!

I HATE MY LIFE

2007-07-06T06:20:00.000-07:00

It's over and we're stronger and we'll NEVER have to go back again. - Oh Mother by Christina Aguilera.

I hope to be singing that ten years from now. Because honestly, I'm at the place I never wanted to be. I honestly hate my life now. NOTHING is going well. Well maybe everything would be better if I was more masculine. I think me being girly is a problem to the whole damn school. Right? Why else would they ANNOY THE HELL OUT OF ME. And the ONLY thing they have to say to me? "Fuck You" "Gay Shit". AND IT ALL GOT WORSE AFTER THAT STUPID TALK.

I hate it. I hate hate hate hate it. I never felt so much hate for anyone or anything before. I just want to say this to EVERYONE who wants to annoy me. "Move Move Move right out of my life"

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2007-07-01T18:50:00.001-07:00

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